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bright pain…

Pain is cutting through the night in a crimson gash. It’s my favourite colour but none of this is pretty, no matter how I paint it. After an okay evening strolling through the city sketching out another post half in … Continue reading

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pain in the neck…

For no apparent reason my neck seems to have gone on strike and I am stuck staggering around like a rusty robot unable to look up, down or round. Pain really is a pain in the neck. Generally I have … Continue reading

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life’s illusions…

I’ve looked at life from both sides now, From win and lose, and still somehow It’s life’s illusions I recall. I really don’t know life at all. Tears and fears and feeling proud to say “I love you” right out … Continue reading

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Is fine okay?

I am worried, worried because I feel fine and that makes me uneasy. Since I arrived a few days ago there have been no big dips, no tear storms, no ache and oddly that absence of pain is uncomfortable. I … Continue reading

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talking to the air..

Having made the decision to take the beans, today I started to feel excited rather than plain scared. After weeks of stillness, nothingness, I have about 3 days before I leave and what feels like ten thousand things to get … Continue reading

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the other side of distance..

Today, out walking, I stumbled on the other side of distance. It was a nothing, the dog pitter-pattering down a jetty¬†alongside me, clouds scooting overhead. I’d forgotten everything but the gurgle of the river when memory tripped and blind sided … Continue reading

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