Monthly Archives: June 2011

falling off the earth..

I just stumbled across a blog by someone else, half a world away, whose parent died of the same kind of cancer on exactly the same day as my dad. It is usually good to share, to feel connected, but … Continue reading

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a lightbulb in the darkness…

I don’t know about you but I am kind of fed up with all of this doom and gloom. Reading back and imagining what it must be like for someone else to read this, it occurs to me that I … Continue reading

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holidaying with a hobgoblin..

Another day beside the sea but I feel like a stranger’s keeping me company even when I’m all alone. You see, right now I don’t quite know myself. Everything tires me. I feel as if the me I recall – … Continue reading

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the sound of the sea..

Today I woke up to the sound of the sea roaring and agitating outside my window, a long long way from the hills that are usually home…. so I succeeded in moving on a little at least in one sense! … Continue reading

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taking a little step..

Today I am taking a little step forward. My life before was an expansive place, full of space, journeys and possibilities. My work has taken me to different parts of the world and uncertainty has never been something that bothered … Continue reading

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the bad days..

The hard days are the ones when I don’t want to have to wake up to that remembering of loss. When some how my dad manages to log into skype, or facebook…. or its just the phone rings and I … Continue reading

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on becoming a ghost

My dad’s fight with cancer began nearly 4 years ago. For me, my first experience of the illness that eventually devoured him, was a casual phone call where he chatted through the strain I could hear in his voice and … Continue reading

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making a start on the road

My dad died 4 weeks ago. It feels like ten thousand years and yet barely the blink of an eye. I am a woman grown. I have had my life touched by death before. This death was not unexpected. In … Continue reading

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