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Tag Archives: feelings
cracked earth and moonshine…
Last night as I lay awake thinking a bit too much, some words written nearly a decade ago came back to speak to me: I will not write, or weep, or live a cliché. Mine is the portrait of the … Continue reading
the hole in my net…
Lately I am star-crossed with constellations of bites, little galaxies blazing on my skin. I ponder them, try to divine the beast that bit by the breadth of swell and ache of itch. But all too often they remain mysteries, … Continue reading
how can I help?
We are moths, dancing the breeze ever closer to the flame-flicker that brightens as it burns. There are paths we never want to walk that have to be trodden. Places we don’t want to visit that tug us irrevocably on. … Continue reading
Posted in death, grief
Tagged brother, depression., family, feelings, grief, loss, support
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quiet desperation is the English way…
After a few days where grief was as pressing and present as the ground beneath my feet, I’ve been trying hard to put it back in its place, to shift the tilt of my landscape and let in a little more sky. … Continue reading
Posted in feelings
Tagged bereavement, feelings, grief, habit, heart, reflection, sadness, unhappiness
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goggles in the rain…
Heya Bab, Yesterday it was 5 months since you died. 5 months ago I woke up from another uneasy sleep, went to check on you, was relieved to find you were alive and then realised that a crucial part of … Continue reading
Posted in feelings, grief, missing dad
Tagged bereavement, dad, death, feelings, grief, letter, missing, tears
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it is not enough, but enough…
Heya bab, Lately I just want to call you. It is too long since we have spoken, too long since I have heard your voice. I often think of dialling your number just to hear your phone ring, but I … Continue reading
Posted in death, grief
Tagged bereavement, dad, death, feelings, grief, letter, loss, memories, phone calls, voices
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red dirt and a bumpy road…
Rain drops drum beat their pitter patter on the office’s corrogated iron roof. Dark clouds gloom grumpily overhead, airing their grievances against the stark stretch of steel-grey sky. The hills resonate and rumble with the booms of another a rain … Continue reading
scattered showers…
Most days are sunny but there are odd moments when grief is a brick to the head, an unexpected blow, a crushing weight. There are moments when I wonder whether my sense of loss is greater than my sense of … Continue reading
music in the night…
Music drifts through my open window. The ghosts of drums, voices, old rhythms stilling the chatter of a hundred thousand insect serenades. Tiny loves blending through the expansive shades of black. The unknown words speak fluently of all I cannot … Continue reading
Posted in Uncategorized
Tagged africa, beauty, darkness, feelings, grief, joy, music, night, songs, transience, words
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