Tag Archives: coping

the neon-pink Christmas tree…

Posted on December 24, 2011 by

I was met at the airport by a delighted dog in fairy wings – why wings? I don’t really know. My brother and the pup picked me up, drove me dozing home, and ushered me in to see a neon-pink … Continue reading →

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when someone is dying…

Posted on November 19, 2011 by

Watching someone die is never going to be easy. Something is breaking. A world is ending. It is not going to be okay. The light is greying out. It is not far short of 6 months since my dad died … Continue reading →

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old words and falling breath…

Posted on October 7, 2011 by

The forage through my email gave me a little courage to pick up the diary I last closed a few before dad’s death. It was actually incredibly hard to read the last pages but it feels a little like I’ve … Continue reading →

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when the toilet blocks..

Posted on July 22, 2011 by

It has not been an easy day. The night was punctuated by angry messages, accusations, which did not make for much sleep. I’m still sad and more sickly. I can’t quite believe a cold can last this long. I am … Continue reading →

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grim humour on the bus..

Posted on July 15, 2011 by

I’m reporting back feeling just a little proud, having survived my first day in London without meltdown. I visited work and held a couple of half sensible conversations without the outbreak of showers. I met friends and saw the distances … Continue reading →

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holidaying with a hobgoblin..

Posted on June 28, 2011 by

Another day beside the sea but I feel like a stranger’s keeping me company even when I’m all alone. You see, right now I don’t quite know myself. Everything tires me. I feel as if the me I recall – … Continue reading →

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